where've you been?

i broke out of the shell.
funny how things simply falls into place when i let go.
maybe i was afraid for it to crumble.
but now, its all worth it.

just simply a trip to the grocery store pieced my life back together.
bumping blindy into your back after trippin over myself,
you look at me,
comprehension gleaming in your eyes
and go
'hey, where've you been?'
with that smile you do so well.
(ive always had weaknesses for smiles)

'around', i say,
and never did i know,
where you have been,
is simply staying by my side while i neglected you.

and now,
you have your 1o1th chance.
take it, keep it,
and everything will be fine.

won't it?

strings

i have no idea
whether you are pretending,
or is really that daft.
even SHANNEN knows.
-gasp-

ill give you space to get over that fact










okay now?
anyway,
im impatient.
faster get it,
and lemme move on.

zheru said she created a monster by saying that
. . .
is hot.
i second that.

tmd tmd tmd.

dont binge.
DONT BINGE x24601141526549

BEFORE

AFTER

knnbccb
it takes a five full minutes to do a slipshod work to make patrick skinny
i never said i succeeded.

i hate english projects

i refuse to take the images tht zheru took during the bbq.
as all of them, all i was doing was eating.
non-stop.
and the reason im typing this redundant shit is cuz im bored.
and a certain irritating person
that im not gonna mention who's name starts with 'z'
and ends with 'heru',
just called me a grasshopper.

ka ni nah, you kuku bird.
(bat)


xxx

thanks zheru for your retarded water bottle.

and emily, there WASNT much alchohol.
there wasn't at all, i think.

warm

loves..you yes.
tired..of feeling so confused..
happy..when i finally wanna tell you

you, shouldn't bother..to talk to me, as it always leads to me liking you more.
im forgetting..to not go so deep
but i still love it..i still love you.

head under water

weird are the things that stay stuck in your mind,
even others are long forgotten.

.....

band got silver.
yes, unexpected.
but it doesn't really concern me,
so i dont really wanna elaborate.

its almost my birthday,
andd yet,
i still see no point in celebrating the day i was brought to the world,
and have ended up this way.
and thus,

everything turns meaningless.

its not that easy.
i like you.
and you dont.
simple.
but not easy.
just try to learn to understand why i deny it kay?

ps, thanks to dayna for making me happy
even when i start t cry randomly,
and directing my carebear porn flick with me.
love you, sweetheart.