To my number one.

'I once called 56 Lauren Bells till I got the right one. My point is, if a guy wants to see you, he'll do anything to make sure of it.'

So maybe the reason you're not even trying means you don't want me. Simple as that. Don't say I didn't try. Everyone is convincing me to let go if it's not worth it. Shafena, Celine, Tiffany, Jorinda. So maybe you're not worth it. But please don't prove me right. 

I should:

-stop falling in love with you over and over again
-stop dreaming that one day you'd come and rescue me when I'm exceptionally low and grab me by the wrist and tell me you love me an make me feel like the happiest girl alive
-get over you
-finally understand that dreamers do not get far
-stop loving you
-stop moodswinging
-stop being indecisive
-stop getting jealous of every girl she hangs out with because I have to remember, I NO LONGER OWN HER
-be happy

Point number ten: stop dreaming.

I thought I got over you. But when I saw you today, it felt really really weird. And after a cacoon of self-denial, relevation dawns, I still love you. Alot. You were my friend, I loved you. You were mine, I loved you more. And now you're nothing more than a stranger, but I still love you. 

Oh god, what happened to moving on?
I can get through it, somehow. But I'll never, ever, get over it. 

I was scrolling through my blog and I realised it is lacking in colour and pictures! So tada! English is boring anyway!

AWWWWWWWWW LOVE U!

Oh te Ben and jerrys Ice cream cone part that had a sticky glue like thing there so me and Denise ate around it.

Hahaha is this the one you say you look like a tranny?

PICTURE NUMBUH ONE

PICTURE NUMBUH TWO

And no, we refused to stop here!

HAHAHAHAHAHAH EPIC I SWEAR HAHAHHAH

I MISS MY DADDY (JO)

Hahahah I was reading tiff blog and I thought of my almighty daddy. Wahlau I can't wait for this month to end so your phone bill won't kaboom anymore and can finally SMS.): HAHA AND OMG U HAVE THE WORST TASTE EVER! hahaha you were like 'eh u know my bball team got this hot bung.' or smth liddat. Then I was like WHOA cuz you said hot, and somehow I trusted your taste even though I shouldve known it sucked when you said you're a sexy bomb, so I had HIGH EXPECTATIONS. then wahlau whr got hot. Only damn cute only: but not hot. So far I don't really know any hot bungs other than one or two and AHEM JO, Jarren no matter what is a sexier bomb than u!

Ok bye! Hahaha random rant!

Happy Day Maximum

I swear life is getting better day by day. 

1.)Like today was so eventful (no, I'm not being sarcastic this time round). We had mass lecture which was realy fun. Like we took half a period to file IMO the auditorium and then when she was checking whether we were in out respective classes, all the other classes weren't. Except 3I, which went like 'yayyyy' in a damn lame an tired voice haha. And omfg TYH laughed hahah I thought her Botox was too taut.

2.) I stayed back for Chinese mock oral which when laoshi asked me how I did I went: 'erh, LIKE SHIT?' and she nodded like OMFG YOURE SUPPOSED TO ENCOURAGE ME.

3.) Had one and a half hour of band. WHICH WE PLAYED NICE SONGS. And it was fun staring at Alicia and Zealicia omg their expressions damn funny.

4.) Passed Celine her half her candy and she owes me sixty cents and out picture. YOU THINK YOU DAMN FUNNY ISIT? it's like she ask tiff to take and on three she freaking LIFTED ME UP AND CARRIED ME. I bet the pic damn unglam I HATE CHU. YOU THINK YOU BIG AH.

5.) Met Tiff and walked out to bus stop and made her miss 4 bus100s hahah. And when she finally was released, I missed another two and finally went home.

Cheap thrill. 

Random Verbal Vomit

Today was so eventful I went for chem and math tuition and I had lunch at subway like I always do every week and I bought candy from a cute guy at made in candy and I walked back for math after lunch and I almost got knocked down by a mysterious looking  black Lexus and then I walked found myself at starbucks which I then decided to buy a mocha frapuccino venti to award myself cause it's not every week that I get in contact with a mobile black Lexus and then after getting to tuition ten minutes late I started on my work then at 230 Kevin came which was a good thing cuz then I had an half hour of Kevin time and he sat beside me like he always does which is very cute and after that I left and went popular to get a orange pen and a grey marker and dawdled around for ten minutes then started walking to novena square to where I almost walked up an escalator of the wrong direction while replying Celine and then when I finally reached yami I bought a cup of regular peach with peach slices topping and then sat down and ate it slowly and I became a dinosaur and started to attempt terrorizing everyone but they started taking pictures of me and I as a dinosaur hated the flashes of light and ate everyone up and I turned back into a human and once again sat down to finish my yoghurt and then became a wadrobe because I am supposed to be happy and 'better off' this way and apparently should not miss my exgirlfriend that much even though today was copable cuz it rained and the entire day was awesome and if you know me well enough you should know I adore the rain while K abhors it that totally had no link but it was cuz I remembered that random SMS and Celine just called me a niaosai which I assume is birdshit haha awesome.

Today was such an exciting day. I can't wait for boring unattached accident prone Kevin filled Sunday number two.

Ps, sarcasm is not for the intellectually challenged.