my life is totally screwed.
i have not fallen for him,
and am going to break up with him soon

the guilty conscience is finally kicking in,
i have always benn using him as a replacement for what i can't get.
i'm a fucking evil person.
whatever i've said,
it was all an attempt to convince him,
and
MYSELF.

i feel so bad.
boy, i din't mean for this to happen.
i'm so sorry.
if this is ever over,
i want to let you know this is not how its supposed to end,
cause it shouln't even have started.